I am the blood of the dragon.

Men,you say you want a strong, intelligent, truly independent woman who wants you rather than needs you, who inspires you, who pushes you towards being yourself, who can stick by you through the hardest times, and who can be your rock through life's obstacles.

But you need to know that a truly strong, independent woman does not walk through life with her heart wide open. She has had to put up walls to block toxicity to obtain her strength. She is skeptical and always on alert from a lifetime of defense against predators. She is going to be a bit jaded, a little cynical, and a little scary because those qualities come with the struggle of obtaining that strength that gravitates you.

She is going to doubt and question your good intentions because it has become her adaptability instincts that have allowed her to thrive.
She is not a ball of sunshine. She has flaws. She has a past. She has her demons.

She knows better than to just let down her barriers for you simply because you voice a desire to enter. You have to prove your right of entrance. She will assume the worst of you because the worst has happened. If you want her to see otherwise, prove her wrong.

I believe in strong women. I believe in the woman who is able to stand up for herself. I believe in the woman who doesn't need to hide behind her husband's back.

I believe that if you have problems, as a woman you deal with them, you don't play victim, you don't make yourself look pitiful, you don't point fingers. You stand and you deal. You face the world with a head held high and you carry the universe in your heart.

I am a mentally strong woman. I don’t sit around feeling sorry for my circumstances and brooding over people who mistreat me. I am in complete control of my life I will not allow random people to dictate terms to me.I don’t waste my energy by responding to people who are constantly trying to knock me down.

I am confident that if I am shattered I can come back even stronger because I am determined to be a survivor and not a victim of deceitful and selfish actions of people. I believe that there is nothing in this world which I cannot accomplish because nothing can stop me from being an achiever…

Illusion Of A Fantasy.

Where do I go, which way do I turn...

searching for that love I so desperatly yearn fading memories of a past I'd soon forget isolated and alone waiting for the one not met. 

Is she just a vision, or does she really exist... illusion of a fantasy... 

the truth of it all remains to be seen for in this moment of time I can only dream. 

Laying awake I stare into the night doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight river of emotions flow like a swift moving tide spiraling so fast downward I slide. Will ever I find that peace, I do not know breaking down more with each passing blow desperation and pain a part of everyday life words not spoken that cut like a knife.

I was thinking..

Can you just snap and the person you want gone, disappear?
Can you find a way through every problem without shedding a tear?
Can you hate a person that you hold so dear?
Can you find the one you love and have him seem be too good to be real?
All the above is way too hard to be doing it on your own.
And when no one is around to help you out and pick your feet off the ground, you end up spending your nights crying, in your room all alone. 

Wishing someone was holding you tight and you find that some one right here, right now.

There she is...

                           

There are very few women in the world who have been truly beautiful. Very few. When you look for that beautiful woman you must look deeper then her physical  beauty. You must look past her many physical attributes, past the shape of her body  the curve of her hip and the way that she responds to pleasure. Past even her attentiveness to your needs, her response to your advances.
You must look deeper inside.  

When you look at her mind, you must see the beauty of  her intellect, the power of her mental essence,the love that she radiates, and that special person that she is.
But, even that is not deep enough...
You must look to her personality, that which has been forged through the fires of life, the  rigors of hardships, and the pain of physical challenges. That personality which reflects  in her eyes, and will glow with its shining life. It will be like a star, that in the evening filament twinkles and the humor of her personality will  flicker into your awareness with joyous abandon.

But, even that is not deep enough. 

 
You must pass even her personality to reach into  her heart. Her heart must beat with a passion,  she must pulse with love. Her blood must flow  carrying to her fingertips the messages  of her love. Written in tender touches for you alone.

Even that is not deep enough to discover the truly
beautiful person.

To be truly beautiful, to really surpass all others,  you must glance into her soul. Surrounded by her aura,  cradled in her essence, this is the place of true beauty.  Its reflection sharper then the calmest waters of a fountain.  A soul of true spirituality. Its here that beauty is truly found. Forever tranquil, in the endless memories that each time you meet her impress themselves into your heart.

And i found u.

The pursuit of happiness is the pursuit of reality because illusion never leaves us ultimately happy.

With love, IKBKG.

6ti Saem za Vencavki

In live.

Make your own magic. With love IKBKG.

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Clothes and manners do not make the man; but when he is made, they greatly improve his appearance.

Looking good isn't self-importance; it's self-respect.

His face looked almost as gray as his suit, and the pouches beneath his eyes looked like little bags for holding all the sadness that his head couldn't hold.

The difference between style and fashion is quality.

Don’t be into trends. Don’t make fashion own you, but you decide what you are, what you want to express by the way you dress and the way you live.

Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say, and not giving a damn.

A man should look as if he has bought his clothes with intelligence, put them on with care and then forgotten all about them.

Share some style today. With love IKBKG

Sweater Weather

Everything in my body is weary, my bones don't feel like mine anymore, or real anymore, just simple slugs in my limbs begging me to move slowly and slime upon everything.

I'd rather hide in my sweater than face the world today, and I daren't try to hide my yawns and my sullen, sunken face, bare to the world that I am broken and sad today.

I want to be asleep, where I have a chance of waking up and this being gone. But I cannot do that, not yet, I must fight and live to die another day. How somber.

My hair is a frizzy mess and my makeup must be a disaster, I am sure. The lights dance just out of reach, out of touch, out of my way as i wander along the lonely dark path today has for me.

Tomorrow. I want tomorrow, where I can sleep and dream and beg for a life more than my own, to beg for some magic that will magic away these feelings of sorrow and unworthiness. I just want to be better.

At least my sweater keeps my cold heart warm.

She's one of those girls

He said

One who wears a lot of beads

Beads that stretch to her elbow

And with one look

The look of guilt

Shame

Knowing

He knew

He knew the look on my face

He knew I was like the girl with beads

Panic washed over his ghostly face

Hurt clouded his eyes

Pulling up my sweater sleeve

He saw nothing

A sigh of relief escaped his lips

But he did not realize

..He lifted the wrong sweater sleeve

Old and stained,

ragged and worn,

with holes and even

unraveled and torn.

Love is like your favorite sweater,

well used and seen all kinds of weather.

After a few years 

and several loose threads,

there may be holes that need mending.

Don't get too worried my dear, 

as long as the time that you're spending

is carefully piecing the threads back together.

Love is like your favorite sweater.

Keep dreaming. With love IKBKG.

Every drop is eternal passion.

I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.

Oh, do you understand what I mean? Have you ever felt that about the Moon? Have you ever ached with the sheer beauty of it?

This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. 

As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soulmate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything.

Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie?

So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

With love, IKBKG.

Forbiden sins.

Day after day, word upon word so much spoken, so much heard.. Deep beneath the written lines feelings grow, hearts align  hidden from a past that's been bitten in the stars, our future will be written. So much beauty escaping my eyes, staring up into those starry skies ..Searching for answers, seeking a sign, wishing one day you will be mine.

 And those pillow talks..

"He felt
like ice cold water on a summer day
the way just simply drinking it is not enough
when you have to pour it over yourself
and it pools in the niches of your body
you stand in temorary bliss
when the bottle is empty you finally catch your breath
your fingers lace over where the skin is still numb from touch
wanting more.."

"Mind

Soul

Body

All colliding into one.

Mingling together..

Keeping the flame of lust burning as bright as the mid-noon sun.

Cool breath fanning over burning skin.

The love they feel never wearing thin.

Wrapped safely in her lovers arms feeling far, far away from any harm."

"Restless integrity falls like lamplight
On your sleeping form.
Hands folded, lips parted, a prayer.
I am but an onlooker,
Seated here watching your solemn repose.
Angels have not sung of beauty such as this.
The simple way the veins in your eyelids
Criss-cross and spread a blush
Across your countenance.
I notice your eyes flutter lightly open
And those delicate digits brush
Fine auburn hairs from your cheek.
You smile and turn to me,
Blinking in the soft morning light.
"Kiss?" you ask,
And i'm already moving towards you."

"Lust or lost in the idea of wanting something I don't need... I can't breathe without it...I greed.. I crave.... Hmmm... Lust.....I squeeze so hard ..dust..it turns.. I yearn to have it.... Want but don't need.... share never.. A hot cold sweat.. Maybe a fever. Lust.....it's changing me...Help"

"Lust is a word

full of emptiness

and passion

and pain

Lust is a place

full of smiles

and broken hearts

and red tears

Lust is a song

full of movement

and rythm

and voice

Lust is you

that’s full of me

and we create art

that kills love"

"He wrote words that enticed her whispered musings to seduce her made her body tingle without touch cajoled her heart with bleeding ink ..He was half the world away yet, she felt him so close he connected with every part body, soul, heart and mind. Every word was woven on her heart his voice echoed, enchanting gracefully intoxicating every beat of her life .

Volcanic desire erupted his words were now her reality his embrace her sanctuary as he held her tight whispering promises to never let her go."

A simple opinion can have catastrophic consequences.. Do I look fat in this dress? Truth and reality are not always the best answer. No matter what happens in life.. Men want women...women desire men.